Seven Weeks

I'm finally seven weeks, and I have to say, this progress is moving along very slowly for me. I'm pretty happy because I found harmonica tabs for the song I'm naming my baby girl after, so now I can play the song for her all the time, so I'm practicing now. I'm so set on a girl that I feel I'll be so let down if its a boy, but I'm about thirteen weeks away from finding out what I'm having. Brandin came down for a break this weekend and I'm very happy to announce that we had no fights or anything, so I'm very hopeful that everything works out and we won't have to kill each other in this process. Of course, not ever little detail is worked out yet but I'm just happy that I'm positive in the moment and that little things aren't bothering me, because stress is the thing I need the least. I wish I could see into the future to how things're going to be for me and my little family but I think I can afford to wait a few more months to see what it's like. :)

huh.

So this is what it feels like to be depressed.

A Month & A Day

I recently found out that I'm pregnant.
I can't say I wasn't shocked, because its big news, but now that I've had the chance to process what's going to happen, I'm a lot more calm and I'm even happy. The one thing I was scared about was telling my mom about it, but I finally got it out of the way. She was mad at first but now she's supporting me in the way I didn't expect her to. She's making me get married, first off, and she came up with an excuse to tell my family members so I can live incognito and then come out and say I'm pregnant. I can't say I approve of her lying about it but I can't do anything that's against her will because her support will be gone completely and Brandin and I need as much as we can get at the moment. I'm not sure how things are going to turn out but everything's going to work out, I know it will. :]